A Longing DeepA longing deep, a longing deep,
You ask, when will this longing be complete?
No other time but when we meet.
A longing deep, a longing deep,
Who might the knowledge of my longing keep?
Not those whose shallow love is weak.
VVindicate me, mighty Lord,
Victory comes not by sword,
Vile the death brought in by sin,
Vanquish what is old within.
Vine and branches bearing fruit
Viewed as signs of God's pursuit.
Vainest glories, stay behind,
Virtue crowns the humble mind.
Sonnet LXIIOp. 26, no. 2
Sin of self-love possesseth all mine eye
And clouds this lamp that lights my fevered brain
When I believe these pleasures satisfy
The deepest longings given selfish reign.
To see creation as a basic means
To satisfy the myriad of youthful lusts
Is instability, because it leans
On wants that crumble quickly into dust.
My hope is that I might not acquiesce
In chasing things shortsightedly pathetic,
But powered by the Spirit, try my best
To understand the lasting things majestic,
And make my mark, fulfill the ministry
That I was called to leave a legacy.
MineI am His craft, I took my form
Beneath His skillful hand,
And though I walk through flame and storm
He helps me understand:
"In darkness you will see me shine,
In anxious doubt I send my sign
For you are mine,
For you are mine,
Redeemed to show my grand design."
But I am weak and impotent,
And much I do not know.
Besides His grace, all heaven-sent,
I would not overflow
Above the waters dark and deep
That tempt me towards my mortal sleep.
O, they will sweep,
O, they will sweep,
But God is here my soul to keep.
So dwell no longer on the past,
In distant memory,
But look to him who breathed his last
And gave His life for me.
In deserts dry he lays a road
To drink the sky-sent word that snowed
And melting flowed
And melting flowed
To drench me in this love He showed.
Beach DayIn undulating waves that pound the shore—
Their frothy tides embracing higher waters blue—
I saw my joy, and sat down to adore
The one this heart would daily choose to wander to.
No distance quite too far, no background din
Too raucous that I cannot stay and ponder
All the currents stirred I'm swimming in
Inside my heart, a longing still for more,
And wanderlust for oceans to explore.
Wax and WaneOh! wide-eyed wonder high up in the sky,
My only link transcending time and space,
How many separations have gone by
Before the searing coldness of your gaze?
And always in the fullest of your phase,
When many separations must go by,
'Tis then you choose to show your pallid face
And wide-eyed, sunder sighs up to the sky.
And yet you bear no ill-will, though I try
To pin my loneliness within your place.
For when I have my love within my hold,
You wrap the night around you in its folds
And from our private union hide your face
(Oh! Wide-eyed wonder!) from sighs up to the sky.
No FallowIf fruitful labor has but one sad fate,
'tis that my mind cannot in fallow lie.
My wearied hands do not procrastinate,
I promise you, but as I sit and try
To summon up the simplest of a noun,
I'm flummoxed, flustered, full of bluster.
Fertility demands that life lay down
And give until there's none to muster:
O! what a cruel device, this sacrifice!
The StruggleThough once I said it was adversity
That birthed the most imaginative verse,
In darkness lies no creativity,
Despair itself destroys and gives no birth.
It murders, leaving no recourse for mercy,
Swallowing up the brightest minds, its maw
Insatiable except for vilest cursing
Of self-inflicted wounds all rubbed and raw.
But when the light inside me flickers fire
And cuts through darkness with its needle rays,
The smallest candlelight might then inspire
Poetic justice for defeated days.
In light alone do shadows find their shape,
The struggle from which poems find escape.
WoundsThe time when verses flow most freely from my mind
Is not when life has altogether been too kind:
The echoed strains of joy, what words could catch and capture
The speechlessness of laughter, hearts abrim with rapture?
It's hopelessness and sorrow baring wounds through words,
A crust of scabbed emotions daring to be heard;
It itches mightily, and though you want to rip
Apart the hurt and all reminders in one strip,
It stings to know there is no bottom but an ooze,
This awful spring of inspiration, pain-infused.
But give it time to heal, protect it from all harm,
And off it comes. The skin beneath is new and warm
And paler than before, but solid in its form.
Winter SmileSickles from their outward breaths
Heavy on the cotton hems
To block out the winter cold
Drags deep their soft touch
Deep into the stems
Of all the comforts of old
She curls her fingers overtop
Slow moving fields of white
Blue the indentation draws
Yet no more do I feel its shadow
Close to mine she melts slight
Her stresses left like dewdrops
I hold her in a trance of ease
So right her press beside me
That I wish this night never end
To stay here with easy lungs
That never darken black to speak
Nor take the worry to spend
A crown of furrowed fabric don
Their curves to hide my love for morning
When I have dreamt of proper words
Can I reach over beneath her head
And kissing whisper deepest greetings
That transient sun cannot keep unsaid
Her touch is faint upon my flank
But fire burns this chill
Out of a feeling to keep her safe
Her smile is the distant seat
I would take the whole world's ills
To have remain to blaze my way
I crash those glass knives with her name
Scatter the weapons to f
Broken HeartI feel the driving wedge,
the hammer and nail,
sending endless pain,
to make me insane.
The battered cavity of my damaged heart,
is only just a broken piece of art.
I can never see it again whole and well,
the scars are engraved with a tender kiss,
the pain is the venom that makes me fall apart.
I wish all was in a state of bliss,
but truth is nothing in farewell.
I wish for something different,
a change in endless pain,
but I can only hope and wish,
for it to not drive me insane...
in the fingers of vain.
Saved By YouYou lift the veil of darkness from me
and keep the demons at bay
hold me tight and keep me safe at night
with you beside me I greet the day.
Because of you once more I breathe free,
you whisper the pain away
keep me safe at night and hold me tight
with you my dreams are no longer gray.
Around your neck you wear my heart's key
I need you to always stay,
hold me tight and keep me safe in the night,
when all seems lost you show me the way.
So we lie under the sacred tree
your eyes spark like stars at play,
keep me safe in the night and hold me tight,
to each other we silently pray.
I'm Not Where I BelongEven though I'm surrounded by people who love me,
Why do I feel so alone?
It's like I'm not truly meant to be here,
Even in this place I call home.
They say home is where your heart is,
And my heart it lies with you.
Without you here I feel only broken and sad,
And there is nothing I can really do.
Cause even though I'm with people who love me,
My dear I still feel so alone.
It's like I don't really belong here,
In this place that I used to call home.
Written by Emily Cramb
KeroseneShe sits on her bedroom floor
Waiting for the right time
To wish for the affection she yearns;
The intimacy she craves.
But little does she know
She’s pouring kerosene in her brain
Waiting for the fire.
Don’t give her a lighter.
Crushed by desire.
It’ll drive her insane.
This trivial woe
Feels like a tidal wave.
How it starts in your lungs and burns.
Now her heart is lined with grime.
Cleaning it is just a chore.
Vague A L'AmeVague à L’âme
Détourne le regard ! Ne la regarde plus !
Voici donc les égards de mon esprit confus…
Pourquoi… ? Dis-le ! Dis-moi ! Pourquoi ne le puis-je pas ?
Fuir tout ce qui m’émoie, cette vision qui est là ?
Mes yeux ne se détachent… Soumission insolente…
Au contraire ils s’attachent à cette fleur dansante,
Etoile… Déesse ou muse… la voir m’est tant péril,
Que contempler Méduse, m’aurait s’embler facile…
Je ne peux concevoir une telle attirance,
Un mélange d’espoir, de folie, de démence,
Qui conduit là mon cœur à rêver d’une personne,
A rêver mon bonheur dans des pas qui résonnent.
Peut-être bien qu’en fait,
Dear Child of NightOh, child of night
in silent sky
so lonely at your vigil.
Life absent of light
except in your eyes
that shimmer in their silver.
Your flowing hair
bedecked in diamonds
to light this love's tragedy.
To come so far
when at an end
you are the other me.
Oh, darkness sweet
My love! My own!
Your beauty lies unmatched
You're who I seek!
Alight the crown
on sunset's careful thatch!
But, oh so bittersweet
how can this love
so brittle in existence
can withstand the need
of those above
who hold in their persistence?
So, child of night
although we cannot touch
please know me from a distance.
Charmante ChasseresseCharmante Chasseresse
La princesse de nuit les appelle à la danse,
La belle s’est montrée et dirige l’instance,
Douce et envoûtante comme un filtre d’amour,
Le temps se gèle alors à chacun de ses tours…
Un air de soir d’été, sa jambe en équilibre
Sur la pointe se joue les regards félibres…
Noble démarche, beauté heureuse qui m’éprends,
Elle… Légère et silencieuse qui vole au vent…
Un seul geste de plus et la magie revient,
Délicat déhanché, une égérie sans fin,
De quoi pouvoir charmer et sur les cœurs tailler
Ses marques acérées de chasseuse embusquée…
32. ExplorationMy hands slide over grass-less country
and scale beautiful smooth-faced peaks
leaving a trail of shivers to guide my lips
to the cave your river of words leaks
Swelled by soothing waters
I continue on my way
clearing a path of foliage
clearing a place to play
Bearing my tools for mining
I tease and graze the ground
then slowly digging they leave
marked what I have found
Deeming my expedition fruitful
I fold up my ruffled new map
watching as this discovered land
trembles in my lap.